But the LORD still waits for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion. For the LORD is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for him to help them. ~ Isaiah 30:18; NLT
I am full of talk. When I am feeling down it is easy for me to talk about waiting on the Lord and trusting the plans of God, but my actions tell a different story. Rather than going to God for comfort I seek other ways to distract myself from the circumstances that I find myself in, and then I wonder why nothing changes in my life.
In Isaiah God makes it clear that He wants to help us. His desire is to show us the love, the grace, and the forgiveness that we need to have in our lives. Though God's love is unconditional and is offered to everyone; we still must choose to go to God in order to receive it. We will not discover it while we are trying to find life on our own.
How do we receive the love and the life God has for us? King David in Psalm 51 gives us an insight on how we are to approach God:
You would not be pleased with sacrifices, or I would bring them. If I brought you a burnt offering, you would not accept it. The sacrifice you want is a broken spirit. A broken and repentant heart, O God, you will not despise (vv. 16, 17; NLT).
We are not to approach God with a religious piety and tradition. Going through the motions of a religion does not move God's heart. What moves the heart of God is when we approach Him weak and broken; not because He enjoys to see our suffering, but because it is when we are broken that we are most apt to realize that our only hope is God. Until we approach the throne of God broken and repentant we will never realize the awesome love God has for us. Pride is the biggest obstacle we have in experiencing the love God has for us.
When we are prideful we look to change our circumstance on our own. We will pursue happiness the way we think is best. We may say all the right things and do all the right things, but pride will keep us from experiencing God's love.
I am so tired of mouthing the right things and ignoring God. My pride has kept me from admitting my weakness and my need for God's strength. My prayer is that I come before God broken and repentant, calling on Him for mercy and grace.